[KAEYA KNOWS YOU'RE IGNORING YOUR OWN ISSUES, ROMAN. but he doesn't bring them up, because this is not some kind of competition, and he knows roman's past is full of his own trauma and things that'll be difficult to confront. all kaeya can do is be there for him when he needs it.]

Yes... I know.

[a quiet, gentle smile as he holds roman close, taking comfort in his warmth, his weight. at least if he does go through with this... he'll have roman at the end of the day. he'll always, always have roman.

he nods, because that's one of the many reasons why kaeya likes roman as well. the quiet understanding. not needing to explain themselves to each other, because they already get it.]

I am happy. Just- maybe not that part of my life. [a laugh.] But- as long as I have you with me to support me, I can try to make it better. For myself, and so you don't have to look so concerned for me.

[he presses against the wrinkle between roman's brows with a laugh.]