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If you're thinking about it then... that's good enough for me. It's a start.

[ roman has his own issues, but they aren't here, so he refuses to put them at the forefront because he can truly ignore them. out of sight, out of mind. he instead presses closer and after kaeya has had a moment to breathe, he shifts to hold his face in his hands. ]

I care a lot about you, you know that, right?

[ he strokes his thumbs gently along his cheeks like he's thinking, his eyes glancing downwards. ]

You get a lot of parts of me that not a lot of people back home understand. As long as I get the job done, they usually don't really care much for the follow up. But you know what that's like. And you know how easy it is to start to shut people out because of that...

[ he pulls him down, kissing his forehead gently, slipping fingers underneath his eyepatch string and nudging it away slowly so he can kiss his eyelid. ]

I just want you to be happy, Kae... and I don't want you to have any regrets.

[refroze]

[KAEYA KNOWS YOU'RE IGNORING YOUR OWN ISSUES, ROMAN. but he doesn't bring them up, because this is not some kind of competition, and he knows roman's past is full of his own trauma and things that'll be difficult to confront. all kaeya can do is be there for him when he needs it.]

Yes... I know.

[a quiet, gentle smile as he holds roman close, taking comfort in his warmth, his weight. at least if he does go through with this... he'll have roman at the end of the day. he'll always, always have roman.

he nods, because that's one of the many reasons why kaeya likes roman as well. the quiet understanding. not needing to explain themselves to each other, because they already get it.]

I am happy. Just- maybe not that part of my life. [a laugh.] But- as long as I have you with me to support me, I can try to make it better. For myself, and so you don't have to look so concerned for me.

[he presses against the wrinkle between roman's brows with a laugh.]

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[ we can talk about my issues... uh... at a later date!!!!!!!!!! ]

It takes two... so like... this isn't just on you, but it's also on him for understanding. Okay? Make sure you've spoken only the truth, and that he listens very carefully.

[ he pushes a bit of kaeya's hair back behind his ear, lingering with a fondness in his touch that indicates that he understands that what he's asking of him is... difficult. ]

I think you'll both benefit from it... besides. I wanna meet him. This is totally selfish on my part too.

[ gently, he kisses kaeya right on the nose. ]

[refroze]

Mm. [depending on when kaeya catches diluc, it'll be a russian roulette on whether he'll be in the mood to hear kaeya out of not. but if just explaining kaeya's side of the story is all it will take, well... kaeya hopes that diluc will think it's a crock of shit and spit on him anyway. that way kaeya can clear his conscious and keep diluc safe!

he has a feeling it's not going to play out like that, though. diluc surely has his own hangups regarding kaeya's actions, but kaeya sees his big brother tendencies emerge from time to time. but kaeya can hope.]

I want you to meet him, too. He's the only family I have left. It's the closest you'll get to meeting the parents. [a small huff of a laugh. he pulls roman so close that he can't see him anymore, face buried in roman's neck, limbs just splayed every which way on the couch.] I want the two most important people in my life to meet. One day.